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If I could turn back time... I'd spend less time looking for 'The One' and more time loving the ones I had. I wouldn't look for someone to match up to my criteria. I'd give everything I have to make it work with someone willing to try as hard. I wouldn't walk away hoping for 'someone' better out there. I'd stay and watch him become better than he was. I'd spend less time trying to manipulate circumstances to match the movie script in my head. I'd spend more time soaking up the circumstances I found myself in.

If I could have one wish... I'd wish for someone who doesn't have to be perfect, but someone to love and be loved by, to know and be known by. Someone who would hold me tight and never let me go, no matter what.

What good is all the achievements, success, money, and things in the world when there's no one to share it with?

I'd trade my 13,000-pound scholarship, the dream trip to Paris, a fully-sponsored trip to Europe, a stable job and good income... for the promise of a lifetime of ordinary, everyday moments spent with the most ordinary person - chats over a cup of coffee, late-night movies, sleepy phone calls, private jokes, handwritten notes - moments that become more precious than anything all the money in the world could buy... because they were shared... with someone who becomes the most amazing person in the entire world... just because that someone chose to share it with me, and not anyone else in the world.

But I can't turn back time, and no matter how hard I rub any lamp I can find, I know no genie will pop up to grant me a wish.

And so the only thing I can do is resolve... that if ever life brings someone my way again willing to give loving me a shot... I will fight with everything I have to make sure I don't make loving me even harder than it already is. I will give everything I have to make it work. I will be thankful, every single day, for those simple, precious moments. I will love more, and better than I ever have.